Wednesday, August 16, 2006

life

If I stop and think for a moment, I see that life is a very complicated thing. More than just laundry, dishes, getting through the day (though there are days where to make it through the day is a huge accomplishment), vacuuming, disciplining and the list could go on of "things" that I do.

I was standing in line at Meijer this morning behind this very elderly couple. She was in a motorized chair and he was paying the bill and couldn't keep his hands and arms still from shaking. A thought ran through my head. "What are Ed and I going to be like when we're that old? What kind of memories will we have?" Which brought other questions to mind. Am I living life to the fullest? To enjoy each moment? Even when kids are screaming at each other. Even when the zucchini bread I bake is drier than sand. Not to wait for the next set of events for life to get better: Sam going to school. Not being strapped financially. The weekend. The next sunny day. Is life only lived then? Am I wasting away the days, time with my kids, my husband, my friends, to wait for something better? I could sure be waiting awhile.

7 comments:

heather said...

good thoughts, jean. i need to be reminded of this sometimes.

kassi said...

very well said love

Jean said...

Thanks you two. Usually I don't have time to think in line, but for some today I did. And elderly people always soften my heart.

Hillary said...

Wow, Jean... that's totally the kindsof things that I'm thinking about right now... am I jsut waiting for the next thing to happen to start my life? (well, not right now, but you know, in general!) God wants us to have abundant life, and often I wonder if that's what my everyday life is. Good to know it's not just me! :)

Thanks, too, for your comments, again/still! I love having new mail to read when I get a chance to check!

Jean said...

Hillary, I hope you are enjoying your last days on your trip!!

Carbon said...

I totally find that I need a reality check to remind myself to live in the now and not be constantly thinking ahead and planning out things. Great post.

MarktheChef said...

My wife and I have friends that are much older than we are. They are early 70's now. She had a stroke about four years ago and has been in a wheel chair ever since. She cannot eat, drink, get around or go to the bathroom by herself. She was once this "regal" woman that we all looked up to. Now she has lost all of her regalness! But I can now see how her husband is now my hero ... he does it all for her feeding, cooking, cleaning and helping her in the bathroom! They tell a story of how he was trying to put on a bra and then panty hose for her one Saturday ... it should have been so horrible ... but they will make you laugh till you cry because of how they tell it ... and how much they are in LOVE! I guess what I have seen in them is just that ... how much they love one another!

I am not sure how Cindy and I will be when we get older ... but I hope that we will still be in LOVE the way our friends are. I hope that I can love her as much as my friend love's his wife.

Thank you for letting me express my thoughts ...

Ciao, Mark