Wednesday, December 20, 2006

observing changes

Every day seems to be blending into another. Once the kids' feet hit the ground the day starts and once their eyes are closed and they are actually sleeping, the day can come to an end and a breath can be taken. What goes on in between those two moments is all a blur. I can't tell one day from the next as they all consist of the same things. Work. Take Sam to school. Go to one store or another. Get home. Get Sam off the bus. Dinner. Bedtime. Do all over again. But that seems to be coming to an end.

Usually I do not look forward to change. I become content in the every day sameness and even the every day struggles seem to look alike. But changes are coming down the pipe. And I look forward to them. I'm ready for a change. Tomorrow starts the first one. Sam is done with school for the next week and a half and I'm looking forward to having him home and have ideas in my head of what we can do over the next days before schools starts again.

It has been hard to find enjoyment in each day when they fly by and seem like a repeat of the day before. I'm sure there are little changes that are happening that I don't even realize. The sun peaking through the clouds. The kids learning something new. Encouraging someone without realizing it. A step towards growth, even when it may be a small step. A stirring in the heart.

So with eyes that now see the way life has been, hopefully they can focus on the little things that can change and bring life instead of the same things that they have observed over the past days and weeks.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's funny how you can hate some changes and long for others sometimes...

amelia said...

It can be really tough sometimes to not get bogged down by the daily drudgery of life. I guess that's why I blog. It's forced me to look for the funny, the special, the unusual or thoughtful moments that I have found happen every single day. I never noticed them before I started looking for things to blog about!

Anonymous said...

It seemed like you sighed as you wrote the first part of this post, but breathed in a big lungful of resolve and positivity as you tapped out the ending. I like that. I felt that way as I read it and go away feeling a little puff of wind in my own sail today.

Jean said...

This is true Anne. I'm looking forward at this time in life. :)

Good thinking Amelia! That's always a good way to keep sane and look for the sunrays that we may pass by with being so busy.

I'm glad I could provide you with a puff Cheeky. :) You hit the nail on the head. I felt like I couldn't really move before and had the umph all of a sudden to be able to keep going with fresh eyes. :)

kassi said...

there are DAYS?? I just thought we were jumping from week to week...

Hillary said...

I agree with Amelia! I tend to see things a little differently when I'm looking for things to blog about. And yeah, it helps to savour certain moments that would otherwise jsut pass on by.

Enjoy many savoured moments with your family over the vacation.

Merry Christmas!!!

Carbon said...

Well, I hope the change all being home to enjoy christmas together is feeling good today :)

Merry Christmas Jean, to you and your sweet family.

Jean said...

I laughed out loud reading your comment Kassi. So true. So very true.

Thanks Hillary and C!! Merry Christmas to both of you and Happy New Year!!

anne said...

I take it you switched over? :)

Jean said...

figured I needed to ring in the new year some how :) How could you tell?

anne said...

I noticed your blog posted 25 new posts and the verification is different. Blogger is my key to everything. It always is weird to see someone post 25 things and I just know they switched over... :)